I’ve been having these repeated “a-hah” moments the last few weeks. Realizing where I was, and where I am today, is purely because of all the healing work I decided to do. Yes, that’s right, decided.
I remember what it was like to be spiritually bankrupt, an emotional train-wreck and to have no desire to continue living on this earth. What was the point? I had no passion, I had no purpose, I had nothing. Or so I thought. Thankfully, my creator, that at the time, I didn’t believe in, but held me close, decided that I would have a change of heart, shook the ground I was on, and in a matter of a day, my life turned around. Ever since that moment, I became highly invested in letting love be my guide, and not fear. Has it been easy? Well no, not particularly, but healing becomes easier, the more awakened I become. I can identify what is going on very quickly, and then, I decide, how am I going to roll with this one? How will Heather Lynn Tobin, turn this into magic?
Fear will suck your soul dry. It will leave you listless, depressed, and direction-less. You will exist, but you will not live. You may do the minimum to get through the day, and then lay there at night thinking about all the things you didn’t get done and should have done. Damn that “should”. That should gets a lot of people, in a lot of trouble. You want to talk about anxious depressed and miserable? Keep shoulding on yourself. (I wish that was original, but I must honour Susan Stewart for the concept of shoulding on yourself, as she is the first person I ever heard say it).
When I decided to dive-in heart first to my healing journey I had NO idea what was going to happen. But I was all in. I don’t do anything half-assed. I always use my full ass. (also not original).
But what IS original, is this. Only YOU can decide to get your life together. Only YOU can decide you no longer want something, or you want more of something else. Only you can LIVE your life. We all go through ups and downs, life changes and events, but it is about how we absorb the situation, process it, and what inspired actions we take from that moment forward. If your inspired action is to stomp your feet and moan about life being unfair, well I’ve got news for you, that won’t cut it. It might be cute for minute, actually no, no it won’t be. Can we just agree to stop that behaviour now? Okay good.
I didn’t get to this incredibly, delicious, gorgeous and delightful place in my life by throwing tantrums, blaming (myself or others), carrying anger or building resentments. I did all this for years, MANY years, but that isn’t my story now. I not only turned the page on those unhealthy behviours, I’m in a whole other book.
So, are you ready to write the new story for your life? Do you want to dive in and go heart first into this beautiful incredible abyss ? Learn how to be the best most authentic version of yourself?
Stop playing small. Play with me. Invest in yourself.
Your heart is stronger, bigger and will serve you fully! I PROMISE.
You, just need to decide. Decide that you deserve better. Decide that you want to turn off the noise, get back to basics, and fully step into your life.
Ask me about my June specials if this sounds like the boost or the kick in the butt you have been waiting for.