I used to have friend that would say it was as if I was always swinging from pillar to post. That I couldn’t find a “happy medium”, that my “balance” was off. That my “emotions were all over”.
This made me sad, because I believed that these things were bad. I invested so much into what this person had to say about me, to me, that I started to try to force myself to live more balanced, to quiet my emotions, to settle down almost.
Then I learned something else. This person was merely uncomfortable with me for their own personal reasons, and so whenever they had these opinions or judgments about me, it had to do with them, not me.
What I also learned, is that no one gets to silence me. No one gets to tell me not to go with what I feel. No one has that power over me.
I also realized that I feel everything BIG. I feel the highs and the lows, and everything in between. I know what it is like to be riding a wave of excitement of thrill, adventure, soul moments and glory, and I also know what it is like to feel down, deep sadness and pain at levels that most people avoid.
You see, at some point in my life I decided that I WANTED to feel. I wanted to feel it all. I didn’t want to bury it. Hide it. Shame it. Or ignore it.
I love it all. I accept it all. I allow, it all.